selamat tahun baru.

2012, hey.

i don't mean to get all reflective, but it's a rainy day and i have my hair in a top knot (i did spend the weekend in ubud, after all) and i accidentally ended up here.

i read so many pre-new year tweets and facebook statuses that talked of how 2011 was full of so many things for so many people ('maaate. 2011 was one huge ride. no wonder i'm exhausted. lol')

on new years eve, i was sitting at my kitchen table, looking at all these tweets and statuses (that word seems wrong, like it should be statii..) and thinking woah. some people must have had and eventful 2011.

and i was thinking about how mine was pretty regular.


and then i realised that i was thinking that while sitting at my kitchen table
in my house with no walls
in bali.


when a year earlier i was going a little crazy in a house with the regular amount of walls in thornbury.

so, pretty big year i guess.

several people - completely out of the blue - told me that 2011 was to be a big year of change (something to do with energy, the universe, etc) and that those people that embraced this energy, would/could have amazing experiences, while the other people, who were unwilling to change or step outside their comfort zone, would be left behind.




i felt so stuck at the start of the year, just walking around thornbury thinking about being able to fly.

on the first day of the school year, when i was sitting in a chain fast food restaurant, in the depths of the eastern suburbs, drinking a latte and talking on skype to PW (because i was there hideously early, having left so much time to get to the weird outer east), i felt like things were really not how they were meant to be.

and then in the 12 months to follow, the crazy wave of change really swept me up - sometimes i didn't want it to, sometimes i was happy, sometimes terrified, sometimes excited, sometimes indifferent..

and while i didn't ever actually develop the ability to fly, i did go to so many amazing places, and places that even i (who wants to go to most places) had not imagined i'd ever go to.

i turned 30 on my first day in jakarta, for goodness sake.

i'm not going to list everything, but from moving to indonesia to discovering that i secretly love watching the kardashians (it is true. i have never been much of a tv watcher, and suddenly i have ended up in a house with cable and somehow become addicted to trash tv), spending my 30th birthday in jakarta to christmas on an island in sulawesi, it was definitely a lot more of an eventful, crazy, amazing year than i could have ever imagined.

i hope i really embraced the energy of change to the full extent. i think i did.
(jill from khs, if you ever happen to read this, thank you for your words of wisdom).

now for 2012 i'd like a year that is just as exciting, with just as many amazing experiences, although perhaps a little less tumultuous, thanks universe...






(i need a bit more time being settled, to fit in my reality tv watching...)